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March 27, 2020 at 10:48 am

I started going to AA regularly and found a home group I really like. I got a sponsor and she helped me go through the “big book.” Reading the big book of Alcoholics Anonymous can be a bit confusing on one’s own so it’s nice to have someone who has been in the program a while and helps me understand it. I also got a copy of Living Sober which has several ideas on how to avoid picking up that first drink.
I call my sponsor almost every day, I go to at least 3 meetings a week (where we read the literature and talk about it), I meet with other women in the program periodically for coffee, I do service work to help other alcoholics (most of whom are in treatment), I journal about my feelings and I have made most of my amends to my friends and family.

March 27, 2020 at 12:13 pm

I do feel more free now that I have admitted I am not in control of all the external things around me, including my alcohol intake. I am taking better care of myself, bodily, mentally, emotionally and spiritually. I try not to obsess about myself all the time the way I once did; I don’t feel as useless. As a result, “problems” that once bothered me in the past don’t bother me as much. I feel as though I have been given permission to let go of a lot of things I once held on to because a part of me thought that was normal. I am learning how to handle people in a healthy way whereas I used to mostly allow them to walk all over me, not tell them they’ve crossed a boundary, hold in the emotion until it built up and then explode. I don’t do that much anymore.
It takes work but it’s worth it.